Letter for Chey

Chey,

Need to sleep but I have you on my mind
Something that comes naturally not by design
I miss you tremendously, you couldn't begin to understand
I'm in to you so totally, would you ever take this hand?
Everytime I'm with you, I get a sense of euphoric
Imagining life with you, I sense being complete
These words are not mere expressions
But echoes of supressed dreams and intentions

How could it be I'm so into you?
Being wiser at age, I should be able to differentiate
Should've known diving headfirst renders wreckage
If not numbers, experience should have indicate

But these things beyond my control
Still into you I plunge heart and soul
Baring my all
Would I face another fall?

Just Awake?

called you at half-past two
been wondering what you're up to
this mundane sunday afternoon
thought of spending time with you

after echoes of endless ringing
you answered the phone drodgily
"just awake?" I asked unbelievably
"wake up sunshine it's almost three"
damn, you sounded so sexy!!

your voice sultry in bed
freezed all thoughts in my head
quickly I searched for things to say
"hey wondering what you're doing today"

half yawning, very much sleepy
no surprise, we were on the phone last night at three
said, "hmm..go la and mandi"
you: "mandi? apa tu? sounds alien to me"
(ish, tak senonoh sungguh budak ni!)

driving your mom later, you tell me
hey, no sweat, fine by me
I find that cute anyways
boys spending time with mom are rare these days

we're going out later
once you're done being chauffeur
until then, I'll be smiling to myself
resounding your voice, I'm at unrest.

Do You Not

do you not hear me
are my says lost in twillight
ignored purposely maybe
do you not see me
reduced to insignificance
a tiny moth with broken confidence
do you not want me
what could you possibly want
that i could give
do you not accept me, the least
acceptance is big to ask...
it's i
who'd neglected you all these while.

Troubled Mind

I sit in a state I couldn't reckon
A state of mind impossible to fanthom
I sit here yearning for guidance
And a small voice promising assurance

Under this tree trying to comprehend
Is life always this difficult to understand
Would happiness be in the far end
Or beyond reach, never in hand.

Sajak Empat Pagi

Jam empat pagi...
Kau baru pergi
Aku tersenyum sendiri

Jam-jam tadi
Ku rasa bagai satu mimpi
Kau di sisi
Terjawab pinta hati

Jam ini
Aku masih mencubit diri
Apa benar episod tadi
Atau cuma mainan sakti
Dan aku akan bangun dari mimpi?

Jika mimpi, biarlah ku tidur lagi.


*:D :D :D

This Rush

This rush, so insane
A thousand times over
I'm calling your name
A little girl lost, then found
Lost again, in madness within.

Irony

when I'm with you
you say i make you happy
when you're with me
I feel so empty

Penyair Kecil

penyair kecil cuma
menyusun kata
ekspresi jiwa
tiada nama


*for toopid girl, my 1st commentor. thanks for dropping by. :)